Thanks, Mom...

In a previous post, I alluded to the fact that I didn't always know if I wanted to have kids. I'd promised to share the story and thought that Mother's Day would be the perfect time...

Eight years ago, I was going through a tough time. I was enduring the end of a five-year relationship whose end made me question my core values and exactly what my purpose on this planet was.

One day, my mom and I were discussing children and I let her know what my views were. Kids were part of a natural progression. You go to college, you get married, you buy a house, you have kids. It's just something you DO.

She disagreed.

Mom let me know that you have children with someone because you are meant to.

I disagreed.

She said that when she met my dad, she somehow knew that she would have a child with him. Never mind the fact that they were both on separate paths in their life that would not automatically point them in that direction. She knew and had faith.

I still disagreed. {enter stubbornness}

Then, in her wise way that let me know that this time she really did know what she was talking about, she said "This does exist. YOU are proof."

At that point, I agreed to the idea...though I didn't believe it. I told her, "Okay. If that's the way it is supposed to be, I will never even think of having children unless that feeling happens to me." With that statement, I secretly told myself that it would never happen. Over the next three years, I dated a lot and had relationships where I could see a future...but had no feeling of wanting to start a family. And honestly, I was fine with that.

Then there was Aaron.

Within a few weeks of meeting him, I felt it deep within my body and soul that not only did I have to spend the rest of my life with him, I had to have his babies.

So here we are. Just over a month from meeting this blessing from God, a product of our love for one another. Even now, after more than five years together, I still find myself saying, so this is how it is supposed to be.

Thanks, Mom...you were right:)